Let's get one thing about me "straight" up-front. When it comes to sexuality, I'm about as hetero as they come. If a gay guy came on to me, I'd be like, "No way, bro. I'm a straight-up party boy who's into chicks." Yup, one gay dude wouldn't stand a chance. It would take at least four or five gay guys strapping me down to make it inside me. Sorry, fellas, that's just how straight I am. And even then I wouldn't make it easy. I'd be like, "Hey look! There goes George Michael!" And they'd all shriek "Where?!" at once, and I'd make a break for it, and they'd be like, "He's getting away! Chase him! I want his butt!" But I wouldn't just give them my butt. They'd have to take it. And once they got me strapped down, I'd stop fighting it because that would be giving them what they want. And I don't want them to enjoy it. If anyone's going to enjoy it, it's going to be me. So, I'd just relax into it and taunt them by telling them how ripped and sexy I find them and letting them know how much I'm enjoying myself. So, even though I'd have a bunch of ripped guys all taking turns on my butt, I'd still be enjoying it. But only because I forced myself to. It's not like I could fight these guys off. There are too many of them and they want me too much. What am I, Chuck Norris?" I'm not against homosexuality, though. I say to each his own. You're free to do whatever you want

How do I stop obsessing over my penis, and penises in general? Is it a side effect of pornography addiction and being poisoned by blackpill content (which is a sort of pornographic mindset if you think about it lol)?

I don't mean to say that I stroke my ego about how awesome my penis is, in fact it's average! I mean that for the past decade, from 12 to 25, I've been anxious over the size, so much so that I've measured it probably every few months for a decade, consumed exclusively penis size oriented pornography (including some sph and ntr/nts, sadly), and frequently stopped masturbating on a whim to go measure my penis for the umpteenth time to make sure I got it EXACTLY right in an almost OCD-esque compulsion.

Penis has taken up large chunks of my mental bandwidth and working memory and it's actually gotten worse in the past few years, a kind of reemerging obsession with greater intensity after my penis grew two measly centimeters two summers ago (non-futa and non-hypercock penis growth and penis expansion hentai, though rare, is one of the niches that I'd say I like more than the others, under the umbrella of actors/characters explicitly acknowledging size, or raw number/data comparison between people).

There are times where I have gone to the most depraved extremes, such as spending a saturday constructing paper tubes and eventually corn starch molds of different sizes like some mad scientist and contemplating them in relation to my own, or the numerous instances of pausing some amateur porn and spending hours finding the exact dildo a girl is using to know what size it is, or the many cases of spending an afternoon counting pixels and using conversion factors to calculate and compare the penis sizes of characters in a drawing or hentai manga.

There's an aspect of shame as well, I've thrown every ruler and tape measure in my house away only to "relapse" and go buy them again during another bout lmao