And it's been a ♥♥♥♥♥♥ day for me, for years. I'm very susceptible to the "birthday blues" effect. I even avoid cooking during my birthday because i'm too afraid to hold a knife in my hand.

I'm gonna start a new life from scratch. No bed, no fan, no pillow, no stovetop, no fridge, no everything. AAAND already causing problems to someone else.

This friend of mine is doing the craziest thing of leaving his family home just to rent a home to live with me so I have a roof to live and don't off myself. I mean, he has a stable job and I can cook and do the cleaning so it works out for the time being. ( Here's his profile if you wanna tell him he's a cool dude)

Still I'm aware it won't be for long. I don't have the mental strength to pursue a career anymore. I don't even have anyone in this earth i can call a family. I don't even have my cats anymore to have a reason to fight for everyday.

Eventually, I will disappear, and for those that care, please don't be sad. It's just fate working. Some people are not meant to survive. They are to be rolled over so others can.

Thank you for the wishes and I hope you have a decent Easter.