I was lucky enough to be blessed with the opportunity of discussing this, life, <universe> and everything with one of my closest friends. I had the time staring at the ceiling to think about it too. I was able to grasp at a larger scale, how lack of a sleep schedule affects me, the next step of it. I was in disdain and disbelief at this new perspective.

I would close my eyes and see from other’s eyes how I am whenever I mess with my sleep. I would then remember how terrible I felt as close as TODAY when I woke up and a feeling of dread washed over me as I was getting ready to leave my room. Then I would remember other times.

Then I would close my eyes for a second time and remember smiling. I would remember interacting with others, going for casual strolls, taking care of chores properly, seeing the people I love, getting to reminisce the olden times with them, getting things done, taking proper care of my body and all that good ♥♥♥♥. Those are when I get good sleep.

- 2024 Starchy