I have not been able to connect any friendship, work or sexual relationship in my life since I started playing counter strike. I hide behind my veil of sarcasm and irony where I silently hope that the day will come when I still trust another human being enough to reveal my honest emotions. This game gave me more trust issues than my father, who left me at two in the morning at the German border at the age of five, promising to be back in five minutes.

Whenever I feel good in my life and a wave of positivity fills my veins, I remember counter strike. That white lightning of flash rises in front of my eyes, I hear the sounds of toxic Russians and dying characters. Maybe one day I will once again live in blissful ignorance and without fear.

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