i'm a little lost right now... i feel like im drifting the great ocean of life, aimless, like an empty vessel
but that's okay.

Originally I wanted to put Hobbes from the comic strip Calvin & Hobbes on my profile picture when I made this account. Instead I put a picture of Tigger on a pogo stick because it appeared more energetic and it hid my real feelings. Turns out Whinnie the Pooh and it's characters were more philosophically inspired than I actually realized - rooted in Taoism and touching on other philosophies.

I had one friend on steam once who also said they liked Calvin and Hobbes. We both played Awesomenauts. That game is in maintenance now by Atari. There have been very few people in my life who have come as close to talking about the essence life to me in conversation like he did. We only talked about it a few times. Other than that, most of everything I know has been from keeping my distance and watching people from afar, or so it feels like.

I feel like I miss him. I haven't opened up to many people in my life. I think his name was Lucster77. Spent a lot of time in Awesomenauts, more than me. He made political videos and scenic videos from Canada. He also played Piano, and made music.

I'm not that wealthy, but I am relatively comfortable. Too comfortable, in my opinion. I spent so much time wandering from up here. I feel like I can raise and lower my periscope and see the world from here. Computers, and the internet has grown and twisted in such strange fashions over my lifetime.

I'm still dreaming, so I guess that doesn't make me too much a burden on society, I guess, although I see people who are losing direction in life, sorta similar to how i've been wandering for the last 25 years. I don't know how much longer the internet can be such a whimsical and beneficial place for the world. That's putting everything in sweeping positive terms, as there are always problems out there. But, I don't know if all of this information we have put into the system is going to benefit people that much for much longer. That's just what I see.

I will have to carry some of societies burdens with my life soon enough.

Maybe I can do my due duty to people one day. All anyone ever really needs to know about me, is that I like people, and that is my choice. I can't make people do things, but I hope that you can find a place where you can help people too, someday.