I only speak to Traditional people."

For 26 Years it's been life without a birth family idk how I am still alive, how I did not commit suicide" life's been very difficult & tuff for me growing up without a family, traveling places, different homes, growing in abusive relationships, be treated like ♥♥♥♥, trash on the street, just the ultimate suffering every day, I am 27 years old and just completely lost in the world, at the age of 15 my adopted grandmother died, everyone died I feel alone in the world, sad, emotional unstable, cannot find true love. Life is hard when you don't have a birth related family like most others do, every day I wake up in pain wondering what happened that day during birth", God stripped me of everything,, family matters the most" when my birth mother gave me up for adoption she ran away never to be seen at the beginning of my life, I suffered" I endured" I willingly wanted to die inside", my heart shattered to pieces. I wanted death, death was the only option for me, I grew tired of living a Double life, I've been abused, I know what it's like to be beaten on, hurt by so many people and yet I still ask God to kill me I begged him to do it" I wanted it so badly, I could not accept life nor bare it's suffering anymore, everyone is gone, Dead, what is my purpose for living"

I do not want to live anymore. I would rather die than live

My own birth mother could not even show her face nor my father, oh the pain hurts a lot more inside, that part of knowing & feeling alone with no friends, relative's, family, brothers or sisters. God should have not made me", because he made a mistake" knowing my parents were nowhere to be found, the streets consumed me. I found myself committing crimes, doing unspeakable things. I have so many chances to jump off a bridge, instead throw myself to an on-coming Amtrak train

I cried myself in the corner of my room, filled with wrath, anger, sadness, suicidal thoughts, idk if I can ever forgive them for the pain they've caused me over these years, I'll be 28 & now I want them dead, my story is ****** ** I will never be the same again, and for them"

let them read this message"

Mata", Pata
You are no longer my family", for you have separated yourselves from me and all the pain you have caused, You are dead to me, mother" may the next child you conceive as a ♥♥♥♥♥" be the child that destroys you, and everything you stand for, for if you think of me, you will suffer the pain and agony & willow in death as you have abandoned the only child that loved you & had love foy you even when you have forsaken me" I will see you burn in fire"
Father", the ground you walk on is cursed, may you suffer it for the rest of your life as I have suffered! may everything you see or do that is pain, think of me when you abandoned me in this life, this pain I have will never go away, I never want to see you & if I do, you shall suffer death"& for mum", she shall suffer greatly"

Mum " I suffered for years, you should've came, were you there for me when I needed you, dad" You are a whoremonger " I hate ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ you, for as long as I've lived I would love to kill you, to see you drop dead.... Bastard"
I have soo much hate in my heart for you and there is a reason for it, mark my words" You & mum will suffer for this", for all the times I was beaten by others, I thought of you mother" were the ♥♥♥♥! were you? did you not give a ♥♥♥♥ about me?? when hard times came, I thought of you, you deserve Death" as when you lived you deserve to die"
that is my promise to you mum"

My fate is my own"

They made me do it"

I ran away, never to be seen again