i live in darkness, my heart is black, dead and cold, lifeless.....im lifeless, my heart has no natural rhythm to it anymore, it is bleeding, it used to have a tiny hole, but now, the hole is about 3in, big, and my heart bleeds, it bleeds and each year...the hole there gets bigger and shall never heal, and hopefully, it shall stay that way, i rather face this pain, than face the pain love can bring.