2:00 am- Wake up

2.05am-Cold shower

2.15am-breakfast,almonds, breast milk bought off Facebook, 50mg adderall

2:30am- begin workout,incline bench 2 plates,12x12 with 30 seconds of rest, no warmup.

2:45am-edging,4hrs (for disipline)

6:45am-cold shower

7:00am-begin sprint to work

8:00am-arrive at work

8:05am-get called into boss' office

8:06am-get fired from job for "repeated inappropriate comments" and "predatory behaviour"

8:10am-sprint back home

9:10am- lunch-raw cod, berries foraged on the way home, small pebbles (for digestion),50mg of adderal

9:10am-edging(as punishment)

3:00pm- bed time

I've made a severe and continuous lapse in my judgement and I don't expect to be forgiven. I'm simply here to ♥♥♥. So what we came across that day on the woods was obviously unplanned and the reactions you saw on tape were raw, they were unfiltered. None of us knew how to react or how to feel. I should have never posted the video. I should have put the cameras down, and stopped recording what we were going through. There's a lot of things I should have done differently, but I didn't, and for that from the bottom of my heart, I am sorry. I want to ♥♥♥ to the internet, I want to ♥♥♥ to anyone who's seen the video, I want to ♥♥♥ to anyone who has been affected or touched by mental illness, or depression, or suicide. But, most importantly, I want to ♥♥♥ to the victim and his family. For, my fans, who are defending my actions, please don't, they do not deserve to be defended. The goal of my content is always to entertain, to push the boundaries, to be all inclusive and in the world I live in I share almost everything I do. The intent is never to be heartless, cruel, or malicious. Like I said, I made a huge mistake, I don't expect to be forgiven, I'm just here to ♥♥♥. I'm ashamed of myself. I'm disappointed in myself, and I promise to be better. I will be better, thank you.