you are interested in reading about who i am? You truly care huh?
well


so who am i ? Rei .
Who is rei? Rei is rei and Nothing more.

in short:

mentally unstable and ill without help and support from professionals for multiple years, depressed, lonely, have family issues, attachment issues, desperate for love and affection.

what i do:
wasting time and rotting away in my 20s, (or how old am i at the time you are reading this), without a job because of mental health. letting my delusions give me some happiness in my life. suffering from my own mind. Being my owns prisoner. doing stuff that interest me. living in misery, hatred, depression and short rare moments of hapiness. being constantly kicked when already down.

interests:
kei, seeing kei in my dreams, making arts/doodles/sprite edits, making videos, making memes, making my own lore and characters, playing games, arguing online/being a clown, watching videos/films/series/anime, making mods, listening to alot of different music, making music in my own head hoping i will someday learn to make it real like many other things, shidposting, shizoposting, talking too much, knowing too much, not talking too much, not knowing too much, making many different ideas, Project Moon, many games, and many more things


in longer details:


i dislike humans and dont trust them.
potencial shizoaffective with negative symptom "avolition". Paranoid, hysteric, anxious, unstable, have voices inside my head.
emetophobic.
being a clown is my coping mechanism
I want freedom of seeing what i want.
I am cultist of my own opinion.
im a fool, i know too much. I take the role of a cursed clown.
potencial man in many ways: artist, youtuber, music artist and etc. If only avolition would let me develop it all.
I argue alot. But its mostly because of miserable past life and mental state that causes the impulsive aggressive behaviour and etc. If i look like im having fun trolling and arguing - its because i had to learn to accept it and have atleast some fun in my life.
You can always try to talk with me. But try to interest me first if you want a good talk or simply dont mention things i hate if you like those things. And beware that i disguist/annoy most people and i have controversial opinions and my humor is a strange one. And im contradicting alot sometimes. I saw too many things and know too many things, and i think too much. I may behave how i didn't wanted to. Its out of my control often. Sorry or not sorry. It depends if you provoked me or got provoked easly by it. Its out of my control once again.
Or if you want to play some games - im almost always up for that. I love playing games. And i know many games and play many games.

I have my own company of clowns named " Circov' " (⛪church+circus🎪) which i play with often. We mainly speak russian and only few people can join it so if you think you fit - ask (nvm its now open). Someday even if i will not be lazy i will make videos cuz i have alot of material already of our gaming
my discord is reithetrap if needed.
and this is my server [discord.gg]
vk group of circov with our chat [vk.com]
YT channel

i dislike most feminine woman or man. I mostly like masculine woman
i dislike lgbt and furries.
i dislike lust and erotic ♥♥♥♥
i love jesse

random shid: i like clown style, gothic, militaristic, traditional japanese and maybe some more.




Cursed Contradicting Circus Chaos.