I'll try to keep this as short as possible. I am an anime connoisseur and I know a lot of anime girls. I also have anime body pillows that I sleep with at night while I wear my lucky fedora. I was always attracted to anime girls, both emotionally and sexually.
Every part of their body Every inch of their body From head to toe is ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ perfect. The shape, skin, etc. They are ridiculously sexy.

And it's not just their appearance. It's their personalities I love as well. However it'll take a while for me to type my thoughts so I'll skip that for now.

Yes they are drawings, Japanese cartoons, but that doesn't make them any less attractive. Search up rias gremory from high school dxd, her face and body are breathtakingly GORGEOUS. Anyways now that that's off my chest Ill get to the point. This one anime girl I care the most about, her name is Kirino. She's from My Little Sister Can't Be This Cute. Her appearance is also absolutely ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ stunning, head to to toe. Every part of her body and face. I have printed out a lot of photos of her and posted them on my walls. Whenever I see her or think of her I feel happy. And if anyone ever talks about her with me I get excited. I also love her voice. Even Her voice is so sexy. Just hearing it makes me happy. Believe it or not, I can even stare at images of her for minutes, I once looked at images of her for an entire hour

Her beauty is majestic to me.

This has been going on for a year ever since I started watching the animes she's on

But I've recently have started to get upset that she doesn't exist and NEVER will. And there's nothing I can do. No amount of power, money, fame, work, or time can ever bring her grace into existence. I don't even feel attraction towards real girls as much I used to before.

What can I do? How can I stop this? Even typing this, I feel upset because she's not real and never will.

I've told my therapist about this but the way, so I get any comments telling me to see a therapist please don't! Just don't! Therapy isn't even a quick fix so please don't bother bringing that ♥♥♥♥ up.

And one more thing, if you believe this is a 'troll' than don't bother commenting at all and move on with your day.