To know that we know what we know, and to know that we do not know what we do not know, that is true knowledge

Sometimes, there are certain senses that can be somewhat misleading onto many, but not onto few.

I'm not sure where you're getting the impression that Touhou Project/Project Shrine Maiden is making me depressed. It isn't - quite the opposite, actually. Talking with others who are familiar with the doujin series is fun, and wearing the cosplay outfits that I have gets rid of some of the dysphoria I feel daily.

That said, I've just had an appointment for anxiety meds, and will be having one for apathy meds in two weeks, so those should help. I still need a new job, of course, as well as a friend I can live with comfortably, but that'll arrive with time.

Do you want to be healed?

Because this obsession with 'Touhou' isn't necessarily helping as a permanent solution, and you know it. That may explain the depression and anxiety starting to increase overtime. Yet there is an alternative that 'should' restore your sanity, your health, and your mind.

Like those holy habits as explained earlier.

It can sometimes be good to ask questions at any level if something seems confusing or if something doesn't seem to be lining up. A lot of times, people on both sides don't know that there are things that are not being communicated. If your professionals are unable to answer questions that seem pertinent, you can ask for contact information for people or services with likely pertinent information. Also, it should be noted that although I may sound like a professional or expert, I am not. My research has been mostly limited to my own situations and the exploration thereof. I cannot express enough the importance of discussing these things with someone that is more knowledgeable about your specific situation.

Foods are usually a safe thing to try, but can often affect medications. Also, if you do start adding extra cinnamon or other foods to your diet, it is generally a good idea to do just a little, at first at least, and gauge any possible reactions in your self. If your medication(s) have a list of foods to avoid or limit, it would be good to review it and potentially check if any of them are in your regular diet (if you haven't already) as that could be inhibiting the effectiveness of the medication. This is another thing that I have noticed that doctor-type professionals are sometimes not privy to and falls to the pharmacist to adequately explain to patients that a lot of times don't know the extensive details.