Long version of my sickness [justpaste.it]
I have depression & anxiety, despite this I am not easily offended.
I am a Christian, and stand by loving my neighbour.
I also seem to be everyone's second choice.
I still continue to learn and grow as a person, I do my best to avoid making mistakes, but inevitability I will still make mistakes but will learn from them.

I've had a brain scan to check for brain cancer, a full body scan to check for any cancer anywhere else. I've swallowed RadioActive fluid that shows up on an x-ray to see if anything was wrong with my internals.

I have an unexplained sickness, that started when I was 8. I was told I would grow out of it, but instead it has gotten worse. From being sick 50% of the time. It is now 100% of the time.
From cyclical vomiting, I now have the digestive disorders called persistent vomiting.
I'm on antidepressants; Sertraline
I have these side effects: insomnia, sudden loss of consciousness, paranoia, fainting and dark thoughts.

However, despite all of that. If I could have the chance to rewind time and not be ill. I don't think I'd take it. I was expected to get into my local grammar school, but I failed as the first day I was back after hospital I did the exam to determine if I would get in or not. I was 6 marks off despite 42% attendance. If I would have got into that school, I wouldn't have met some of the awesome friends I have now. I probably wouldn't have joined the football team that I joined, which gave me a bunch of new friends over the course of 3 years.
Most importantly I wouldn't have been part of a group of people my age with similar problems; i.e anxiety. I would take my illness and knowing them, over being well and never to have met them.

My favourite kind of music is either I love classic rock, modern rock, emo music and rock-esque pop music. But I do also love songs by Bo Burnham


I'm the founder of the whole thing.
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Foo Fighters - Walk
I think I lost my way
Getting good at starting over
Every time that I return
Learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?

Stereophonics - Dakota
Rememberin' you
What happened to you?
I wonder if we'll meet again
Talk about life since then
Talk about why did it end

Fall Out Boy - Alone Together
I don't know where you're going
But do you got room for one more troubled soul
I wouldn't change ya, oh

Muse - Unnatural Selection
They'll laugh as they watch us fall
The lucky don't care at all
No chance for fate
It's unnatural selection
I want the truth

Cage The Elephant - In one ear
Now I know I'm not a saint
I been a sinner all my life
I ain't tryin to hide me flaws
I'd rather keep them in the light

P!ATD - LA Devotee
You got two black eyes from lovin' too hard
And a black car that matches your blackest soul

Foo Fighters - D.O.A
Take a good hard look for the very last time
The very last one in a very long line
Only took a second to say goodbye
Been a pleasure, but the pleasure's been mine, all mine
And never mind, there's nothing I could do

Sum 41 - Motivation
Motivation such an aggravation
Accusations, don't know how to take them
Inspiration's getting hard to fake it
Concentration, never hard to break it
Situation never what you want it

Avenged Sevenfold - Afterlife
Please, understand I have to leave and carry on my own life
I don't belong here, we gotta move on, dear
Escape from this afterlife
'Cause this time I'm right to move on and on
Far away from here
Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you
This place full of peace and light
And I'd hope you might take me back inside
When the time is right

Arctic Monkey - Snap out of it
What's been happenin' in your world?
What have you been up to?
I heard that you fell in love or near enough
I gotta tell you the truth, yeah
I wanna grab both your shoulders and shake, baby
Snap out of it.

All American Rejects - Night drive
So I'm gone, go find another shoulder you can cry on
Take me break me
Every mile further there's a part of me that slips away
One day you'll see
Even if you got down on your knees you couldn't make me stay

Foo Fighters - The Pretender
Same old story
What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

Led Zeppelin - Good times Bad times
I've tried to do all those things the best I can
No matter how I try
I find my way to the same old jam

Green day - Boulevard of broken dreams
Read between the lines
What's f***ed up, and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive, and I walk alone

Razorlight - Before I fall to pieces
You don't know
What it feels like
What it feels like
And so I'll go before I fall to pieces
Yes I'll go before I fall to pieces

Foo Fighters - Monkey Wrench
All this time to make amends
What do you do when all your enemies are friends?
Now and then I'll try to bend
Under pressure, wind up snapping in the end

P!ATD - One of the drunks
Every weekend with your friends
Every weekday when it ends
Damn it's all good, I guess

Fall out boy - I don't care
Erase myself and let go
Start it over again in Mexico
These friends, they don't love you
They just love the hotel suites, now
I don't care what you think
As long as it's about me
The best of us can find happiness in misery

Paramore - Ignoreance
You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go
I'd best be on my way out
Ignorance is your new best friend

Royal Blood - Figure it out
Nothing better to do
When I'm stuck on you
I'm still in here trying to figure it out
I let it go, 'cause I won't see you later
And we're not allowed to talk it out
I said I'd go, put myself on show
But I'm still trying to figure it out

Muse - Panic station
Doubts will try to break you
Unleash your heart and soul
Trouble will surround you
Start taking some control

Third eye blind - Jumper
You could cut ties with all the lies
That you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand