ᴵ'ˡˡ ˢˡⁱᵖ ⁱⁿᵗᵒ ʰᵉᵃᵛᵉⁿ ᵗʰʳᵒᵘᵍʰ ᵃ ᶜʳᵃᶜᵏ ⁱⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ʷᵃˡˡ

I survived by
telling myself


‘I’ll kill myself tomorrow
but not today.’


I kept putting it off
for days and days and days
with the hope that the darkness
will leave my body one of these days.


and some days,
it leaves and some days,
it stays.


I’m still surviving
and that’s the sad truth
and maybe I’ll kill myself tomorrow
but not today.