a moment

this is somewhat of a diary post
a journal of sorts

i made this place a long time ago
it was a unique time
i was taking my convictions and speaking with others about them

i still hold many of those same convictions
though they have matured significantly

but now in my life i almost never let others know what i believe
i keep a quiet faith

i dont want to impose my beliefs on others

but at the same time i believe they are true and worth pursuing
i think they are the most fulfilling pursuit of all

so honestly i want to be bold again

like i was on csgo servers seven years ago

i want to tell others about jesus

its nothing to be ashamed of

there are so many things that are wrong with christians
so much pain we have caused

its an ugly word for many people
but jesus has nothing to do with that honestly

every time i return to him i am amazed
amazed by his wisdom, and his care

if he is the one who I represent?

what do i have to fear?

if i am afraid somebody with think less of me because
i love jesus

idk

that is just not a fear that is worth holding on to

i need to bring what is inside of me back into the light

and writing is a big help with that sort of process
if you see this, please dont hesitate to inquiry on it
whatever thought you may have, feel free to share
or not

csgo church may be of some use to me yet