Hi guys. Firstly, I just want to apologise to everyone for disappearing for so long without even giving any sort of explaination. Especially you G-Man, I never even replied to your asking us to join you in FFXIV:ARR, which felt very rude of myself. I've felt quite guilty about that =( !

It's a long and, if I where to go indepth, far too complex story to tell so I'll keep it as simple as possible. (Simple will still be a little long-ish, so I apologise.)

From when I was around 12yo, I went through some nasty stuff, got severely psychologically messed up, and due to that stress my system seemed to break down and, start whatever this "Chronic Illness" is. We moved from our old home when I was at 15yo, and that is when my sleep times really collapsed. By around 19yo the last of my Psychological issues had been worked out and healed, and from later on in that year I started trying to fix my sleep times.

By around 22 I was really bloody sick of how little, and difficult the progress I was making was and worked something out. Say I went to sleep at 7am and woke up at 5pm, very common for me at that time. Then I would stay up, like normal, to 7am, and then push onwards to stay up until say, 6pm to 9pm that night. During the 7am - 5pm time I would usually be asleep was insanely hard to stay up through, it would get a bit easier after that but still be tired. At the start only one 3rd of these attempts succeeded, however, what usually happened was I would go to sleep at said time at night, and just end up waking up around 2pm - 5pm the next day anyway. So ...

I realised I really needed to Stuff up my body clock before I could reprogram it how *I* wanted it, and started pulling 64 - 72 hour days, one after the other for around a month. A very fun, weird and interesting time.

Anyways, the overall premise worked. After such a time my body clock was so confused I could do whatever the hell I wanted to do with it and it would go along with it for a while, but not too long. I would manage a week of proper sleep times, then it would collapse as my system recalled it's "correct" body clock times. Then I would be back to 4 months of being up at night, and asleep through the day before trying again, then manage 2 weeks, etc. And back and forth it's been going ever since, each time more and more in my favor however. longer day time periods and shorter night time periods.

This whole stupid thing is pretty much over. It's still a tiny bit wobbly, but it is now, petty much .... fixed =). However, 8 years of near total inactivity does you no personal favors let me tell you.

I've started what I'm quite sure you could call "Physical Rehabilitation". It's been going on for aound a month now. The level to which I am unfit is extreme, and is something I need to focus on heavilly right now. Having gotten caught up in an MMO with friends, sad to say, would have been very counter productive. When it comes to you guys online, I tend to prioritise our interactions above most everything else, which in this case, I'm sure you can see would have been problematic.

I genuinely miss you all very much. And, I very much mean ALL. I've thought of each and every one of you individually far more then once. I hope you're all well. I know my dissapearing is hardly out of character, and has most likely not changed anything for any of you, but, I still wanted to let you all know what was up.

I wish you all the best now, from my Brother Ben. To my oldest friends, Gramps, Jay & Z-Man. To my Newest friends Shell & Sy and their daughters. I sincearly wish you all the best in your lives and the current situations you find yourselves in.

Lots of love to you all.

William Johns - A.K.A. - =BW= PilchareD ^_^ !