Hi, Zamn here. I want to let you know you are not alone. Sometimes life feels horrible, and sometimes it feels like if you take it away, things will turn out better. But that is far from the case. Life is a gift, it's something no one really understands, we don't know how we came to be, or how we ended up living on this planet. But what we do know, is that we are all alive, we have lives, we feel emotion, we go through challenges, we have interests, we are amazing. Every one of us matters. It might not seem like you are special, but i know there has been at least one time you made someone smile, and that could have changed their whole day for the better. The smallest things you do for people have the biggest impacts. You matter, i promise. And i know you are strong, you made it this far in life, and that proves you can make it even further. I have felt sad before, horrible, every time people treat me bad, I feel like life is horrible and will never get better, but when time passes and someone does something good to me, i suddenly realize that i was wrong to think my life was never going to improve. Every time something like that happens, I come out stronger. Something that helps get through hard times, is finding something you enjoy. For me, i like to go on long walks while listening to my playlist of Kanye West songs, it makes me happy, and I'm sure you can find something that makes you happy, and when you find that, cherish it, let yourself be happy, and it will help you through these hard times. I believe in you. I ask, when that date and time comes around, look around yourself, and think about something that makes you happy. cherish it, and realize that if you put the rope around your neck and kick the chair, you will never feel that feeling again. Life is a blessing, and I ask you to cherish it while it lasts, and don't cut it off early. I believe in you. Take Care.