yo why can't i see your hours???

Why do I fantasise about hurting people? Should I go see a psychologist, or is this normal. Whenever I see my roommate I think I could hurt him really bad, physically and mentally. I could offend him, bring out that time he got drunk at a party and almost assulted a girl. Come to think of it, he never trully received any repercussions for his actions, but he's so ashamed of it he stopped drinking. He thinks it's behind him, but I know and could use it any time I want. I really like that feeling of power. i know it's wrong, but it's like watching porn on a sunday, you know God's watching, but you don't careYou're shameless, you know you need to crank one out and no divine intervention is gonna stop you. That's how i feel when i think about others. I'd love to control them, but I can even control my own weight. Why am I like this Why does God hate me?