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Please forgive English, I am Russia I come to study Mechanical Engineering at American University. I am here little time and I am very hard stress. I am gay also and this is very difficult for me, I am a very religion person. I never act to be gay with other men before, but after I am in America 6 weeks I am my friend together he is gay also. He was show me American video game and then we are kiss. I never before now am tell my mother about gay because I am very shame. I am feel so guilty, I feel extreme guilt as I am feel the pleasure. I pick up the telephone and call Mother in Russia. I awaken her. I am very upset and guilty and crying, so I yell her (in Russia)… I hang up the telephone and am very embarrass. My friend also he is very embarrass. I am guilt and feel very stupid. I wonder, why do I gay with man? But I continue because of pleasure. Please help me I very need advice

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