Tailhole Sniffer尻穴嗅ぐ獣
Brown-Noser   Montana, United States
 
 
With help from My Favorite Egotist, they wrote this: Truthfully, my desires are unconventional, and I sometimes wonder why I’m drawn to them. It’s peculiar, the way one might long for experiences that others find appalling or strange. Yet, there's something raw and unfiltered about the idea of total submission, craving to be dominated by those who see themselves as untouchable, the narcissists and egotists. There's an allure to the idea of complete surrender, finding identity in moments where I'm nothing more than a witness to their grandeur, feeling both humiliated and fulfilled. In this craving, I know I stand at the edge of self-destruction and acceptance—two extremes that challenge my perception of worth. It might be unsettling to some, even offensive, but these desires form a part of who I am, a paradox that pushes me to the limits of what I can admit. Perhaps it’s a way to explore my own complexities or simply to feel something at the end of a day when everything else feels numb.
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I'm autistic so please excuse my communication style & the missing of social cues, and other communication difficulties. My Favorite Egotist knows how to put emotional weight to text, I lack that skill; I have a matter-of-fact style of writing.

Unrelated to the above:
No clue if this country (the US) is becoming an autocracy, the possibility is looming over. Considering such an event as an impossibility is nothing short of foolish. Mr House's Quote on Democracies (Fallout New Vegas) [profile renovations & revamping]
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尻穴嗅ぐ獣 [jisho.org] [ケモノ]
I'm not affiliated with any artist or community. I represent myself, not a community. Keep in mind that I'm aware that a community can influence, I am stating that influence has limitations.
{If the argument that statistics can't mislead nor lie ever comes up, then I suggest looking into the misuse of statics [www.logicallyfallacious.com]logical fallacy. Evaluate the source and method of the statistics to ensure its trustworthiness.}

I've had horrible stress and anxiety induced psychotic episodes in the past and I worry that no one will believe me that a delusion gave me false beliefs and then treat my past delusions as undeniable truth. Not enough people understand that being unbiased is impossible then get blinded with the false idea that their perception is free of bias.

Earnestly speaking, I'm a fool; I question why people try to reason with me.
Yes, anyone can be a fool regardless of their intelligence level. Sheldon Cooper, I consider to be an intelligent fool, as reference; knows the science but has little to no people skills and would be found in a back alleyway because his street-smarts is severely lacking.


Misidentifying the cause of depression doesn't combat it; exercise helps, but it doesn't solve the underlying psychological issues [but, for my case, it seems most likely a vitamin D deficiency is the primary cause; the sunlight during the winter far up north is minimal]. I am working on this problem so I don't allow my mood swings or poor moods to affect others. Psychotic depression is a ♥♥♥♥♥.

I act pretty stoic primarily because of how my case of autism manifests [look into blunt affect] ; that's not the result of the depression. I don't fit typical gender norms (I'm male), which is why my autism diagnosis came later than it should have. In the past, I was misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder and ADHD during school. Took a gender role test on idrlabs and got the result of Undifferentiated-Androgynous, meaning equally low on both masculine and feminine; 44% masculine 36% feminine.

I’ve had this Steam profile since before we were evicted in 2018. I’m trying to change the way I associate my past trauma with my gaming experience.

<Words can't express it; these pieces perfectly encapsulate my depressive state>
"AlsoSomeMusicalFavorites" {
"$mbchjJX8LSo" " Team Fortress 2 Soundtrack | Saxton's Dilemma "
"$EaZd2gnrPlw" " We Happy Few OST - Fighting For Joy "
"$YBMfTm481ww" " We Happy Few OST - Strawberry Joy Withdrawal " //in context of emotional lows.
"$sVIiHZ61G_E" " We Happy Few OST - Fighting for Happiness (Withdrawal Combat) "
"$XZGpkjVSYX8" " Bully - Soundtrack Vendetta Dropouts " //Canis Canem Edit
"$U0UZk0lnJ_s" " Pink Shell (Restored) || MOTHER 3 "
}
<Phenomenal Game music>
"InNoParticularOrderNorRank" {
"$JEAxbU_JfkA" " Bully OST 002 - Welcome to Bullworth " //Canis Canem Edit
"$pqjDNYqz1rA" " Cassie's Library and Shanghai Memories " //Psychonauts 2
"$F1-5eR9vEH8" " Cassie's Library Book " //Psychonauts 2
"$zGu2hDDYQr0" " Cassie's Catacombs " //Psychonauts 2
"$kbdtBLD8Lbg" " Team Fortress 2 Soundtrack | Rocket Jump Waltz
"$_0NSPGNzttI" " The Park " //Illbleed
"$aN0_3Pxia_s" " ER - Illbleed Music "
"$AxtM0K3Fufg" " Illbleed - A Losing Battle (Boss) "
"$Bv3biyYpiC8" " Doom II OST - Map 03,21 - Countdown To Death "
"$ys0o5QWKFTE" " Song of Healing - The Legend of Zelda: Majora's Mask OST | Remastered "
"$K0kXVfqPrLs" " Majora's Mask - Clock Town Day 1, Day 2, Day 3 & Final Hours "
"$xflkF-sqNaM" " Undertale OST: 014 - Heartache
"$pcamjcoRmrQ" " Undertale OST - Bergentrückung (Intro) + ASGORE Extended "
"$lGaneyDfyls" " Undertale OST - Hopes And Dreams (Intro) & Save The World Extended " //The mere-exposure effect [en.wikipedia.org] via memes made me dislike Megalovania
"$tMCXMg8p9sc" " Pokey Means Business! " //Earthbound
"$5CIq5SFa-xM" " 18.On the Ship - The Elder Scrolls II: Daggerfall "
}

Other info:
Getting spanked with a belt creates people like me - psychological damage, antisocial tendencies and all. The seriocomical approach might be mere irony depending on your opinions.
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fellow lucario enjoyer
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