Im a bit tired mentally,tired with people,anhedonia slaps hard,aggression management issues from elementary school are back (Its not depression or smth Im just not feeling much of positive emotions or just feeling numb/empty).
Violent dreams almost every night aren’t nice but I did start enjoying them when Im the one who inflicts misery in them and its bad.
I have never hated people more than I do right now. Sorry, I’ve never tried to be mean i just tried to keep a distance using some clumsy methods. I should never overvalue trash (ppl) again.
Me blocking or deleting was almost never personal. (Almost)
I quit because I’ve found nice job abroad and should be moving soon. Although im bad in “moving on” since always. Imma do get a wife and do green card speedrun. Idk what about my steam and usk if i should take laptop for hypixel or just sell everything.
Either way so Im always gonna be the same and dumb 'drozdoviak' <3 no matter what som things never change