go to sleep

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I can only imagine the day that they said
No, the world isn't flat it's a circle instead
You can run to wherever you want to now
And those dizzy stargazers
Who dreamed of the black, kept their heads in the clouds and they
Never looked back, they kept wandering
And never did they look down
Charting Neptune by the fire of the sun
Kept looking for new constellations
New constellations
There's no walls and no ceilings as far as I know
Just the echoes of scars and the unbeaten road
Trip the gun on cautions that I've been sold
'Cause it's hard to believe that it's wrong
To want more than the truest of blue and a love like a roar
I will run to wherever I want to go
Oh, charting Neptune by the fire of the sun
I'm looking for new constellations
New constellations
So keep calling me crazy 'cause I never learned
You should stop loving fire because you got burned
Now it feels like I'm living some sick déjà vu
Like the answers were there when I stared into you
Child of Neptune, I'm the daughter of the sun
Keep showing me new constellations
New constellations
You can run, you can run
You can run if you want to, if you want to, you know you can run
You can run
You can run if you want to, if you want to, you know you can run
You can run
You can run if you want to, if you want to, you know you can run
You can run
You can run if you want to, if you want to, you know you can run
What if there's more?
What if there's more?
What if there's more?
Oh, what if there's more?
What if I need just a little bit more?


I'm sorry the party you threw for me
Was met with such a royal hitch
I'm a ♥♥♥♥♥, I don't mean to be selfish
You rolled out the carpet to watch it catch fire
It's just another Thursday, my party
I cried like I always do, oh oh oh
Flew here to help clear the mess that was me
Made up of fear and self-hate
A stalemate with he-who-shall-not-be-named
You tried and you cried, confessing your grip was slipping
Couldn't help me, you held me, the shadows began to fade
Here's to the ones
The renegades who never run
Despite all of my ranting and raging so
Here's to the ones
Who hide the bullet from the gun
Foot down on all my ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ but won't cage me in
Despondent, catatonic suicide queen
By now I know a screw's loose or too few
Or worse there's too many
But of course, the dark horse
You bet all in stride
I hope I'm not a regret, I see sweat
I'll fight to the finish line, oh oh oh
And I get so stuck in my head
Lost in all the lies, nihilistic backslide
And when I can't get out of bed
And I see the edge I'm slipping from the ledge
And praying to gods I don't believe in for a sign
Some reasons not to die and there you are
Here's to the ones
Who stuck in when they should have run
Despite all of my ranting and raging so
Here's to the ones
Who hide the bullet from the gun
Foot down on all my ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ but won't cage me
Here's to my friends
All in until the bitter end
Drink or two to the toast
Not too many though