yuuwhi
agent yuuwhi   Leicester, United Kingdom (Great Britain)
 
 
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my vrchat review
Update, 30th of July: since EAC has been announced, I can say that I'm devastated. This review will stay as a thumbs up because it has nothing to do with VRChat but more what I, myself, did and accomplished inside the game.

This game saved my social life, forever, and obviously words aren't stronger than feelings.
I'm going to go straight towards personal talks so be warned, unrelated to the creativity that this social game roams around. Let's say this review is to let out stuff I held inside, that as of now I'm not ashamed to share anymore.

My mother had and has no social skills whatsoever, for her whole life with me since I was born or well since I witnessed it. As such it transferred to me naturally from her neglect of socially interacting, due to fear or shyness I believe as for now.

Therefore I had been inept socially myself. I was awkward everywhere; from school, to online chatting, to interacting with people from my family or professionals like my teachers.
And, as such, because people mainly rejected how awkward and bizarre I was, I never learned from anyone, no one other than my mother.

Years pass, I grow up being the same teen that nobody seem to had any interests about because, again, being an awkward person due to very poor social skills. Everything was worsening, bullying got in the way, both online and with school, thereof more neglect from everybody, and at this point I knew that a lot of things were wrong about me.

My mental state was declining, as such I got yeeted out from school at 15 years old (approx. in 2015), depression happened obviously, I couldn't control anything, blah blah... I have an impression of déjà vu, for how many people go through that. Alongside having nobody other than my mother again to be here for.

The last option I had was being socially active online on my PC, at 15... It's enough trouble as it is being underage. And Discord was just around the corner so I started there to absolutely no avail, again the cause being my social awkwardness. Plus, I started interacting in gaming communities, a very bad start as you may know of, there has been a lot more toxicity behind a screen from others.

Skipping through time as it is just on repeat, I joined both VRChat and some of the furry communities at the same time since June 14th 2020, without being a furry myself. And, well, everything about me changed shortly said since that special date.

I started awkward as always, plus being on Desktop really didn't help interacting; mainly having troubles with communicating as English wasn't my forte at ALL! As of that I self-taught myself English in the 2 years I've been in this.

At this point, I was mainly lurking around, staying near people, and mirror dwelling. Yet believe me or not, lurking helped me a lot to learn about my social skills. Explaining further, I biased myself on how I would interact on my own by taking examples from other people's interactions that I liked or would've liked to do. Never have I done this technique before. As such, it slowly forged my social personality, and I tried interacting further taking it slow.

At the end, it worked, I achieved something, and I improved a lot.

I was a mess. A shy, terrified, awkward, ashamed, quiet, trapped, occulted person; just like my mother is... Now, I feel neutral about everything.
The only shyness I feel is when I meet new people and the fact that I never am the one to speak first, I still am silent but giving me light attention is enough to make me open myself.
I'm not terrified of rejection or others anymore, my confidence definitely improved a lot.
I don't feel much awkward anymore, I handle it fairly well I believe, and even so now I perceive awkwardness from others while it wasn't possible before.
The only shame I have is about my responsibilities that I have a hard time handling.
The only times I am quiet is to recollect myself, due to stress, bad experiences, or simply that it isn't my day.
The only times I feel trapped is when I am unstable mentally, which is now much more rarer than before.

And I'm not occulted anymore, I have found friends, I meet new ones everytime I play this social game, I've found my home, and this is where I shall stay, it is my happiness and one of the few comfort zones I would never ask but forever need, nothing can beat it and I hope nobody would stop me from relishing my time here.

Thank you, VRChat.
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video_james 23 Jan @ 10:13am 
Nighttime erection data from my 19-year-old son,
@talmagejohnson_
, and me. His duration is two minutes longer than mine.

Raise children to stand tall, be firm, and be upright.
video_james 6 Jan @ 12:58am 
richer than you buddy
legen 5 Jan @ 11:21pm 
whos this creep in your comment section ew....
video_james 3 Jan @ 1:55pm 
You think cowardice is your friend,

You think safety and comfort are your allies.

You will watch them all transform into regret as you get older.

Then they will stab you in the heart before you take your last breath.

I recommend befriending bravery and hardship instead.
video_james 3 Jan @ 1:54pm 
America is saved

England is worse than ever since the Queen left us.

Save Britannia.

She never would have let this happen.
video_james 3 Jan @ 1:54pm 
The “men” and women advocating for the destruction of free speech in the UK are simply cowards.

Afraid to resist, they hope appeasement to the system will afford them mercy.

“NO DONT PUT ME IN THE GULAG JUDGE I WAS ON YOUR SIDE”

History shows.

They may get shot last.

But they’ll still be shot.

And cowards will sell out the fellow man to buy a little time.

Hero’s die first knowing they did the right thing.