To all my friends who may or may not see this.

Tbh, I'm tired of it all! Every day, I ask myself the same questions: "Why tf am I still here?" "Would they care if I leave?" And guess what?

Apparently, it doesn't matter which group of friends I go to, none of them would miss my presence. And honestly, it makes me question what true friendship even looks like. To be fair, I've never really talked about myself; I never saw the point in it because I'm the most boring mf there is around. And that's the reason I drink too much! I hate sober me! I can't loosen up easily. And even when I do while drinking, I'm still aware of all my thoughts, but they just get a bit quieter, which helps.

For all those who saw this (which I doubt), that's the reason I like to travel mostly alone—because that's the only way I can shut my mind off from thoughts about anyone and anything and just live in the moment. Just the thought of being by myself somewhere far from the city, watching the horizon while holding a cup of coffee, is enough to make me wake up for another day.

To be fair, I should have been gone a long time ago.