You can be alive without beeing okay, you can be dead inside and still exist. So when someone says "i'm okey" or "i'm fine" Look behind it and may just talk to them a bit. This bit can help a lot.

I would like to have friends.
How you can tell from my Profil picture it is a really hard problem for me.
If i am beeing toxic i am really sorry please forgive me and we dont have to be mad at each other after game. :)