I do get to be myself. I get to be a very very different part of myself. It’s really interesting when people come into my games, and they accuse me of being fake.

I don’t disagree with you, I don’t know who my authentic self is in the game yet. Every single day that I come on here I discover new things about myself that I’m willing to share with you, and new things about myself that feel important to share with you, and, and I love sharing them with you, you guys. I really really do. I surprise myself and I surprise you.

I had another player recently say that I surprise them as well. And discovering that I have the ability to surprise even old pros at this game, really really makes me feel like I am where I’m supposed to be.


Yes! of course I’m crazy! I’m crazy in love, I’m crazy happy, I’m CRAZY high on life. I really really liked being where I am, I like the people that I’m with, and I have felt this way for my entire life. When I played League, when I played Dead By Daylight, when I played FFXIV, when I played Pokemon.

When I’m in Dota 2, I find people that I love, I find people that I like and I keep them close to me. The people who come back each and every day are the people that I want to see each and every day. And the toxic Invoker Mains can come every day if they want to, and I’ll be happy to see them too. Because at least you’re showing me that I’m important to you with your consistency. And if I can be nothing else, it is consistent! Because I will come back each and every day and I will give you new reasons to hate me, and I will give you new reasons to love me. Because that’s what you deserve and that’s what I deserve.

I want to see how far I can go, I want to see what I can do in this game. I want to see how far the Dire can expand. I want to understand the best parts of playing Slark. And I’m not saying that I’m gonna find them by playing only Slark. But I think that I can find the best parts of myself by doing so.

If I keep going, and I keep saying yes, and I discover the parts inside of me that I have been too afraid, too ashamed of, too apologetic!

Do you realize how many times I wanna send someone a picture of my fully exposed Slark match history, and the first instinct is first to apologize for even messaging them in the first place? I want to say I’m sorry that I’m bothering you, I’m sorry that I’m messaging you, I’m sorry that I’m texting you, I’m sorry that I’m dm’ing you, I’m sorry that I’m talking to you, I’m sorry that I’m gloating to you, I’m sorry that I’m trying to figure out who you are, because all I want to do is open up enough dialogue so that I can expose everything about myself! The only thing that I want to do is expose who I truly am to you!

But I feel self-conscious because people tell me that I’m fake and people tell me that I’m faking these things, and that I’m psychotic, that I’m ADHD, that I’m on drugs. that I’m all these things, but I’m not. What is actually happening is that I LOVE being here. I love being in Dota 2. This has been a dream of mine for so many years, so many years that I’m embarrassed to talk about it.

Can you imagine meeting another person that you want to ♥♥♥♥, and the first words out of your mouth are “All I want to do is be a famous Slark main.”

They've never heard of Slark, they just want to ♥♥♥♥ your brains out, and you’re talking about Slark. Guess what ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥, sometimes it works out. I ♥♥♥♥♥♥ that ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ and they bought me this great big Slark bodypillow. Because I became a famous Slark main! That ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ believed in my dream even though they had never heard of Slark before. And each and every one of you believes in my dream. Because we’re in Dota 2 together today and I believe we can go even further, even higher, even more into the Radiant highground. And I think that we can do it together.

And I don’t know that I can’t do it by myself. I can literally only do it with each and every one of you. And I think that we can. This accounts MMR has grown bigger, and faster, and more intensely than any other account on Dota 2 has ever before.

The clips are good. Make sure the titles are sexy. Make sure that you do me good guys. Cause I come in here every single day covered in Immortals, covered in Slark cosmetics, covered in Announcer Packs, covered in HUD skins. So that daddy Valve gives me whale MMR, so that each and every one of you can have both hands on the keyboard, so that you can enjoy the gameplay, so that you can have a good time listening to me, playing with me, singing with me, smiling with me, enjoying your life.

Which you do, you do deserve to enjoy. Each and every moment of your life you enjoy and each and every moment of your life is worthy. You guys, you can do it. You can be the best that you can be, and we can do it together. It’s gonna take effort, and it’s going to take patience, it’s going to take a lot a lot a lot of work.

But if we don’t try then what the ♥♥♥♥ is stopping us from just throwing ourselves off a bridge, and giving up, and saying “Yeah the ancient is being destroyed. The midlaner hates us. The jungle camps are being stolen. The couriers are all dead. We might be alone. It just might be you and me.”

But that’s okay.