i listened to the below version and was reminded of you

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=442ewPgXHQ0

i still struggle with my guilt, got a fresh reminder today

silence is tough to deal with

⠞⣩⣶⣿⡿⣋⣥⣾⡿⠟⣋⣥⣶⣶⣿⣿⡿⢖⢦⣙⢿⣿⣤⣿⣿⣟⠷
⣾⣿⣿⣥⣾⣿⣿⢋⣴⠿⠿⠛⣛⣛⡛⠛⠿⢷⣄⢹⣆⠻⣿⠫⠝⣿⣷
⣿⠋⡝⣿⣿⣿⠁⣨⣴⣾⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣶⣬⣁⢹⣧⡙⠷⠾⠿⣿
⠿⣷⣶⣿⣿⢡⣾⡿⠟⡋⠩⣭⣤⣤⣬⣭⠍⠛⠿⣿⣧⠙⢡⣾⣿⣷⡦
⣶⣿⣿⣿⣿⡘⠏⡀⣿⡤⢶⣿⣿⣿⣿⣷⠶⢴⡇⠈⠻⢠⡘⢿⠿⢿⢁
⣿⣿⣇⣨⣿⠆⣰⠁⢛  ⣀⣭⠡⡶⢈⣅⣀⠈⡛  ⡀⢸⣿⣶⣶⣶⣿
⣿⠿⠟⢉⠻  ⣿⣄⡲⠾⠿⢛⡁⠦⢘⠻⠿⠷⢂⣠⣿⡄⠟⡉⠻⠿⣿
⣇⠺⣿⣾⢃⡄⠘⢿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⡿⠋⢀⡘⣷⣿⠇⣸
⠟⢷⣦⡁⠋⣴⡦⢘⠻⢿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⠿⢿⡟⠋⡀⣴⣦⠙⢈⣴⣾⠿
⣷⣿⣿⣿⣷⣬⠁⠿⢿⣶⣶⡬⠍⠉⠩⢥⣴⣶⡿⠷⠈⣥⣾⣿⣿⣧⣬
⣿⣏⣈⣿⣿⡟⢀⡉⠄⠒⣦⢰⠁⣰⠈  ⣒⠒⠤⢁⡀⢻⣧⣼⡿⠿⣿

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⠀⠀⡰⡇⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠰⢾⠇⠨⡦⠀⠂⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⡀⠀⢈⣹⠜⠻⢾⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠁⢠⣿⡵⠾⣻⣶⠿⠦⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⠀⢀⣠⣮⣦⡶⠻⠛⢶⣄⡀⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣽⠏⠁⣠⣂⣦⣈⣝⣦⣄⠀⠈⠁⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠁⣠⣾⣵⣾⣾⠟⡙⠟⠿⣍⡉⠀⠀⠆⠀⠀
⠀⠰⠀⠀⠄⣠⣶⣾⣭⡶⠟⠻⣶⡰⣜⣳⣦⣄⠀⡀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⢀⣠⣴⣿⣋⡴⣪⠎⣄⡙⠻⠿⣯⣉⠉⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠂⠀⢀⣉⡭⢿⡛⣛⣵⠎⠀⠙⢾⣶⣦⣭⣷⣦⠐⠀
⠀⠀⢈⣙⣿⡿⠿⠟⣋⢅⡄⡄⡐⣄⢤⣉⠷⢦⣄⣀⠠
⠐⠾⠿⢽⣷⡶⠶⡿⣓⣭⣾⣿⢷⣬⣓⢿⠿⠿⣯⣉⣁
⠀⠀⠀⠉⠉⠉⠛⠛⠉⢀⣿⢿⡀⠙⠋⠓⠿⠿⠏⠉⠉
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠠⠤⠶⠾⢿⡯⠷⠶⠤⠄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀