left mid game in deadlock after going 0-9

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OMG!!!!! This gamer girl so cuuuuteee!!!!!!! <3 XOXOXO

It happened in 2020, I was playing some DM to warm up but then MERLO joined and started to kill me. I told him I wasn't feeling well, but he didn't stop. I even used the safe word but he kept one tapping me. (it was "stop").
His response was "I don't care. I want it now." The headshots he gave me were terrifying. He one tapped me while I was crying and begging him to stop. When he was finished, he didn't even recognize what he had done. I tried to explain what he did to me, but he had absolutely no remorse. BULLYHUNTER 47 joined the game but MERLO raped them too...
I had dealt with some mental health issues after that and stopped playing CSGO. Since then I've been scared to join DMs because I feel like MERLO will come and tap me again.
After the incident, I told everything to Valve... Their response was "What are you talking about?" The same night they sent a comment on my Steam profile that said "U up for some matchmaking ;)" which is harassment… I feel so vulnerable and fragile...