I'm sorry for you. Its probably very sad and rough to live in undeveloped country. Living under constant fear of being arrested or enlisted to war is probably very hard. Lack of luxury items, good quality food and healthcare will cause depression, mental problems and other social problems. Social problems, like alcoholism and poor education, are huge problem in Russia. Rich oligarchs owns most of the wealth and normal people live in serious poverty.

Currently authoritarian Russia is going to total isolation, like North Korea. Russian industries are trailing behind westerns, so living standards will decrease even more. Russia can't replace western imports, because most educated and smart people flee from Russia.

I hope you will survive upcoming collapse of economy which will be caused by lack of westerns products, like computers and other electronics. I hope you will someday gain freedom of speech and thoughts and you can live in free country which have decent living standards.