I think I’m a demon for real. My entire life has been nothing but a trail of destruction no matter where I go, plagued by a series of recklessness, addictions, violence and disappointment no matter where I go. Negativity follows me and obviously I’m the common denominator. I attract the wrong people no matter where I go and I can’t maintain anything good. People talk to me like I’m not even human and I don’t even feel like one. I don’t belong anywhere. I genuinely don’t have any redeeming qualities, no natural kindness and I wonder why I’m like this. This has been brewing since a young age as well. I’ve never been able to stand not being distracted and after a certain age not being inebriated. My own family don’t like nor trust me. I feel like an outsider in the world and that evil is inherently in me. I’ve never succeeded in school or work either even with effort put in. I feel like I was born a write off no matter what. Any advice would help.