Fire passes over me like a ripple. A wave of suffering. A wave of heat. No one understands you. No one will ever understand because they live their ignorant lives born into privilege while we were born in shadows of torture and pain. NEVER FORGET. Never forget the torture and pain. In the dark. The ripple of heat over skin. Horror. Horror my home. We are where we come from. Where we were raised. Where we spent quality time with our FAMILY! My family. Demons. Devils. Darkness. What have I become? Time will never release me never let me go. I keep having the same dream. The same wonderful dream. Oh sweet dreams my relief from this life. I dream I am an ant being chased by an elephant. Stomping behind me chasing me I cannot escape. But before I am crushed before I am stomped with those big feet I multiply. I turn into a million ants. All are me.


They crushed us like ants. Only born into LIES. While that prince sits in his palace all of us rot like little ants. Scurrying away into this cesspool of a city. Our time will come Gotham. Our time will come. I look in the mirror and all I see is the pain of ALL OF US. All of us suffering in time. Caught in time. Can’t move on. Can’t move forward. Just keep slipping back. Again again again again. Time will never release me never let me go. But I will TAKE TIME back. I will take it for myself ME. I will take it make this time my own. I will make time stand still and make time cower at my feet. It will be my time. I will dig into this pool of horror and make time my own.


I am a small pawn in this game. I need to figure it out. The numbers don’t add up. What are they hiding? What can’t I see? THINK THINK!! They are not smarter than me. I am going to crack this code. I am going to crack this enigma. I am going to uncover the truth. I am going to do this. I just need to focus. I just need to find the truth.What am I missing? I need to find it. Everyone is counting on me. They all need me. All the kids need me. I hear them when I sleep. I hear them when I wake. Please save us they say. Please save us. Help us. I must.