your mind is pleasantly silent and your brain isn't screaming it at you anymore. you're gone and yet, you're still here, and everything feels so calm that you just want to lay there forever. the tear that streams down your cheek and the scream that wants to rip your insides in half don't hurt anymore, and the misery you've been in ever since you can remember has just.. faded. it's so depressing, but somehow, it's ok. it really is.