what I did... was unforgivable. and I hate myself for it. if dok's still on my profile, i still miss ya buddy, more than I can put into words. i’ve tried every way I could think of to escape this pain, this regret, this endless grief. but all I can do is remember you, and I can’t help but wish i had a second chance, a chance i'll never get. i don’t blame you... i blame myself, and i always will. you were my closest friend, my brother, and I never deserved you. im so sorry, dok. ive never been more sorry for anything in my life. ill never forget you.