I'm depressed. Wanna know why? Because I try hard as ♥♥♥♥ to be good at tarkov, beat yourself, and just wreck ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ and meta gamers like summit, and I never even get a decent raid even after running meta and level 6 armor. I just want to be noticed and feel like i'm appreciated. People who are way less skilled abuse meta and ratting more than me still get good raids. I'm like a little quiet, but i'm not even awkward, and I still get ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥. Life is unfair. I just want to feel loved. maybe, just maybe, there's still someone out there for me that I just haven't found. Maybe i'm too impatient, and just am so lonely already in life that I haven't stopped to think if I should find someone that makes me happy no matter how/when I think of them. But...what if there isn't that person and i'm destined to die alone? That path, to me right now, seems like the more plausible one and that's why i'm depressed.(edited)