Heartbroken, beyond it.. but says he is too..10/26/2013 forever.. in time he will know..once the universe shows him, when all is too late..
Hopeless and worthless confirmed.. he is gone (on the right), quit on me 7/13/21, left and abandoned me. Any day now i will physically vanish as well.. Im less than a pathetic stranger now, blames me, hates me, ending myself is a joke to him, thinks im manipulating with it.. no one understands, no one knows or will know.. i ruin everything & my suffering is his (and society's) laughter. Gone forever.. complete collapse without him is now inevitable, i will always love you AM.. but and he will always point and blame, will only realize this after im gone. that he also forever destroyed himself too.. A wonder that ill never know is what would the look on his face be, what will that feeling spike be when the news reaches him when im gone forever,, He came here cause of me.. said "nothing i can do will ever make him leave", "i dont have to be alone anymore", "ill never leave you unless you tell me to". I just ruin everything, always have, always did.. hes beyond happy now without me, my end is basically up.. He said he cared and his family cared..but in the end.. no.. Hopeless worthless.. when he came back to me i believe him and thought he really meant it.. I will always love Anthony.. even when im not in this world anymore.. he will always hate me..

Im the universe's mistake.

Who cares what i say, think or feel, who cares what i do to me, who cares what someone does to me, who cares what i do to someone, who cares what happens to me, who cares what i type here. CAUSE. WHO. F***ING. CARES.

Um im a gamer 75/25% PC/console, introvert, quiet as f*** yet strict. Im a fighter i like wrestling etc. I already know im a worthless s**t f*g, you won't like/understand me. Lv 5+ post a comment why you added.. I IGNORE RANDOM INVITES [ imgur.com ]

Hikikomori.. ya i guess that fits me, along with probably another 3 dozen other things. I call myself a "gamer" but suck at it like most of everything else, tell me something i don't know. So why don't you go delete this emo f***up already? You know you will anyway. Like everyone making unkept promises & saying things that won't ever be done or happen. The world has always done it forever simply cause of me existing (online and RL), don't why I bother to hold on anymore. Just do it quietly i don't want to hear your finger pointing sh!t as you do it.. Im not smart in the slightest, im intelligent, realistic not negative & ya theres a ƒucking difference. If you remotely think have actual friends or any sort of hope, you can't be more wrong. Humans know nothing about my side of anything, or anything about me in general, and never will so.. idk tell me to jump off a bridge, you won't be the 2nd..

YOU. WERE. WARNED.


Random music thats nice & things probably no one cares about..

Rumble Racing OST: Track 3 (Flip Out/The Gauntlet)
f*** society.
f*** people.
Ill probably be a f*** up for the rest of my life.
Mental health/life ending/depression is a "joke" to everyone.
Why was i really put on this Earth?
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Cloudnone is nice