I need help. They make me both tempted because they refuse to private message me and answer my questions regarding their divine Torah law and they also make me feel ashamed by making me feel bad on here because I sought God truthfully with all of my heart so Jesus accepted me even though I'm a gentile.

Why are they intentionally tempting me to want enmity between me and God? Why wont they answer my questions so that I will stop revealing soul typing and blood letting? Why do they make me waste time endlessly searching when they have freely received the deep things of God. I'm not God, I'm not the son of God, I am a man who is constantly feeling embarrassed and insecure because you wont message me as you hate Me when I have loved you. Stop making me covet and do right by me.