we were never really friends, were we?
just close acquaintances at best
that's all i can think at this point

how was this so easy for everybody but me

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i hope it stays dark forever
i hope the worst isn't over
and i hope you blink before i do
i hope i never get sober

and i hope when you think of me years down the line
you can't find one good thing to say
and i'd hope that if i found the strength to walk out
you'd stay the hell out of my way

i am drowning
there is no sign of land