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I keep finding myself here lately even though it's not like anything will have changed each time I visit your profile. People continue to bring you up often. It hurts but it's telling how much you affected everyone during the time you were here. Time is moving again and it's hard to keep up with. It's insane to me that I've just turned 22 and I have days where all I feel like I can do is miss my friend who had impacted my life the most from the ages of 16-18. I frequently wonder what aging is meant to be like without you - how our perception of you might change if we live many years into the future. Missing you makes it feel like there's a version of you existing in the present, and I have to remind myself that everything stopped at 18, after midnight, four years ago. I don't know who reads these but I don't really care. I think it's important that you are remembered and loved, and personally it brings me the tiniest bit of comfort when other people remember and love you too 💚

You'd be turning 22 in three more days. Approaching your birthday I have your mother in my thoughts. I've been able to see her twice since the new year and of course she's still the strongest and most wonderful woman I've ever met. She keeps the canvas painting I made of you and your 2019 Ball photo on her mantlepiece, so it's nice to see parts of you when I visit. Thank you for sharing her with me, I'm not sure where I'd be without her.

You know, Jade visited me yesterday and she said she thinks about you often. So many people are missing you, u BJDJ 💚 (there's no ibis emoji yet in 2023, I KNOW)

Sending love to you and your family from NZ. You're one of the kindest person I have played with. Rest in peace brother.

Another year has passed by so quick Jur. I miss you.

I wonder if you could have ever imagined what it feels like to be so loved, and to be thought of every day. Tonight will mark 3 years without you, and you've been missed through every moment 💚