"I want to do such and such." "I want to be such and such.""I want to become such and such."
It's out of those thoughts that little kids become stronger.
But what's the big rush? Right now you should hold onto your weakness, because it's a very precious and fleeting thing, so continue being weak.
Whatever you lose, you'll be able to find it again, but what you throw away, you'll never get back. You can die at anytime, but living takes true courage.