Just checking on my 32759843512434694807492763423556th friend on Steam. How are you?

Hi

Dear diary, I miss him. I miss the original life i had. No wonder people want me gone and dead. But leaving will leave me with no friends. I don't even have IRL friends anymore. I recently lost my IRL best friend because she moved to Japan and she then started ghosting me, I don't have anyone left. I don't know what to do anymore. I get hated on everyday. Even people make edits of my texts. Everyday something stupid happens and im the one who gets in trouble for it because yes I started it. Why did I have to mess up. My online best friend from 2019 also ghosted me. I see him on but he never bothers to reply like he used to. It has been 10 months. What have I done to deserve this. Of course I know what I did. Past can not be changed. I just wish I could start over again. I already tried 2 times both failed. I don't know anymore. I am not even happy half the time. No one understands. I cry everynight not knowing what I done to myself. Go ahead and laugh at me. Make jokes at me.

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