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bladee has changed my life.

It all started over the summer. A mutual follower on twitter talked about the ceo on the timeline. His name meant nothing to me at all.

fast forward to july and i am in my truck playing music on a bluetooth speaker. tired of lil peep, i remember the name... "bladee? who the hell is this guy..." i open up my spotify app and type his name in. i see he has a new album, red light. i find the cover enthralling, and click on shuffle play.

i remember hearing golden boy. the lyrics, his flow, the autotune made no sense to me. i wasnt sure what to think.

i get home at my computer and play the album from the beginning. i listen on and off to it progressively getting deeper as the summer evolves and a new school year blossoms.

by the time i started the senior year i have been transformed. i listen to working on dying once a day. entranced by his angered vocals on gatekeeper. i learn abt weird guys. i see the ceo on youtube. specifically nardwuar. he blends into the background along the beta yung lean and zooted sherman. i see his pain. for a second i feel directly in his shoes.

its now november. i fall asleep to eversince. the lyric "to feel something I'd do anything" is embedded in my mind. a description of my hardships for the past 2 years. his crooning vocals and ethereal production ringing thru my ears. my parents hate me now. i keep myself locked in my safehouse. draining into the wee hours of night. diving into the depths of uli k at its peak.

at school i do my work online. just today i had blake1000 interview on loop for 15 minutes. my mind is blank and ive accomplished nothing. im numb to everything for better or worse. i watch his live performance of into dust amazed by the simplicity of his movements, as everything else is irrelevant to me. i think of the non existent woman that i want to drain with. then reevaluate these thoughts because im a selfish goon that wants nothing more than temporary pleasure.

i dont know if i recommend this lifestyle to anyone. i feel as if im the only one in this rural pit of humanity that feels like this. i find comfort in its solitude. away from these ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ and nerds i find my peace