Forgive English, i am Russia

i come to study clothing at europe university. I am here little time and i am very hard stress. i am gay and also this very difficult for me, i am very religion person. i never act to be gay with other men before. but after i am in europe for six weeks i am my friend together he is gay also. he show me american fashion and then we are kiss. We sex together. I never before now am tell mother about gay because i am very shame. As i ♥♥♥♥ this europe boy it is very good to me but also i am feel so guilty. I feel extreme guilty as i begin orgasm. I feel so guilty i pick up my telephone and call mother in Russia. I awaken her. It too late for stopping so i am ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ sex. I am very upset and guilty and crying, so i yell her, "I AM ♥♥♥ FROM SEX' (in Russia). She say what? I say "I AM ♥♥♥ FROM SEX" and she say you boy, do not marry american girl, and i say "NO I ♥♥♥ FROM SEX WITH MAN, I AM IN ASS, I ♥♥♥ IN ASS" and my mother very angry with me. She not get scared though. I hang up phone and very embarass. My friend also he is very embarass. I am guilt and i feel very stupid. I wonder, why do i gay with man? But i continue because when it spurt it feel very good in european ass.