I should really make a new wallpaper sometime soon
29/6/22 and lacking more motivation than ever yet i want to do something. most ive managed was making a low effort wallpaper.
nep

2/7/23 full year passed and anhedonia got worse, antidepressants keep wearing off over time but have somewhat helped a bit as well as the adhd medicine to some extent i think, found a trilogy i really loved and in the next few hours ive lost almost any sort of interest about it. i really wanted to look into the characters and story in more depth too.
well i do know that being a shut in doesnt really help, especially since i avoid windows and also the lack of energy to exercise or do much at all, but at best i would just stare off into space before collapsing on myself from some swarm of unknown feelings and emotions.
in a way, it scares me that, after finally finding something i pretty much loved, i have lost interest rather quickly and its just saddening.



i also hate my life

Actually ended up hitting a limit, 4000 spaces/words(?) apparently. [mega.nz]