Hey! :D

So after filling out a mountain of job applications and studying for a college exam all night, I decided to get on YouTube and remember how it used to be- When I had no worries and no responsibility. When my life consisted of school and Steam. Probably the best 18 months of my life. Things are so different now... It's insane. I have a completely new life. New family, new friends. New hobbies, new responsibilities. Some things I'm glad have changed. Some things have just gotten worse.

So many times I've wanted to come back. Some of my friends get so sick of hearing me talk about Counter Strike and Left 4 Dead, it's not even funny, but I now it wouldn't be the same. I really have nothing to come back to. I'm so different now, I don't even know if I would enjoy it like I used to. I wouldn't have the people I used to play with, would I even be able to find new friends?

My biggest concern, though, is time. If everything did work out, what would I start sacrificing to be able to play? Looking back... I sacrificed so much when I used to play. I don't want to live that way again. I can't. If I do decide to give it another go, I'll have to limit myself. I don't know if I can. I might try, but I just don't know yet.

I just wanted everyone to know that I do miss you. All of you. I know some of you don't think very much of me after all that happened when I left, but I'm different now, if you can believe it. Getting away from it all... Living the way I have been for the last 8 months... I hated it, but I sincerely believe I'm a better person now.

Miss you all, Wishing everyone the best,
-Thrav