So, If you are my friend and have NO clue of dayz standalone or aware of it's roleplaying community ,suffice to say most of this won't make any sense to you or at least a good chunk.


Well, I feel like it has been a good while, two years one would say. I've been drafting this for a decent time now and i've been constantly figuring out how to word it. I've wrote a few paragraphs and deleted it to start a new. This time i have the perfect response, I think.

Now, i made a lot of friends on the internet and some i wish i never really wish to have met, a lot just pass and go. However very few people in my life over the net that i have bonded with so well, I think i have to say thanks Phatal and RangerBoo, For sticking together with me. While Phatal is rather busy now and we just known each other i feel a good connection has been made and i'll always tressure your time spent listening to my woes. Now onto the other part, I've also had people in the past that i've wronged or hurt, Firematt, AssasinZX I'm apologetic in my most sincere severity, I wish i did things different but i was filled with emotions and anger that i think i let it become between you two. Ceaser was another friend who i lost.. but i don't know why he ignores me. Seems like i'm lost and out of touch from everyone from dayzRP. Like i'm a erased from their memories. This extends to a lot of other people who i can't even name as i met so many of them there. Tamaster just fucked me over even though i deeply wanted to get an awnser why he changed. But.. again i must live on with it. However i feel that time may be short if i'm diagnoised with Dementia.


Ahem, This might seem like a self-peity but i don't know what to really say or think, I feel like i'm in the twlight of my life going from one chapter to the next, Missing and longing for the friends i've lost but also wanting to get to know new ones and keep the ones i have forever.. Thumper and Tom i don't think we talk much anymore but fuck it we should. You are some of the only tight nitted dudes i know from the old days that i trust with certain things. I'm getting a bit of ahead for my own good But i wanted to wrap this up but saying if any of my old friends of the past see this then.. i'm sorry and can only ask for you to accept my formal apology, If not.. i understand (For the ones i know how i fucked up.) You can go with blessing knowing that i'm over it. I've tried to gain a lot of you back.. but seems times haven't changed. I don't know if my antiphetical poloarizing views with staff leading to my ban made thing even worse. (Ceaser for instance) and you wanted to book it because i said a lot things that made the staff team look like retards. But i suppose your reasons are also your own.

Peace, Love and Empathy ~ Cheers

Love, Katherine the lady of worlds. <3